Body cooperate with me!

I haven't been able to weigh myself accurately for week 1 progress.  However I have lost roughly 1 kilo.  4 more to go for it to be noticeable.  No wonder people do 6800kJ a day and exercise like maniacs - for faster results.  My only problem with that is knowing what to eat when you have reached your goal weight.  After dieting are we forever looking at containers and weighing our food to make sure we aren't overeating.  Or are we supposed to have achieved healthy eating habits.

I think I am going to have to count kJ until I can't remember how to count.  I know it's only been a week but I guess I just know that I am prone to overeating.  Sadly I am a good cook, and I love to feed my family with wonderful meals - it has not been kind to my waistline.  Of course hubby and the kids are all skinny as.  Must be all the tasting I do along the way.

Saturday was a fairly normal food day.  Pancakes and coffee, corn thins with various toppings, afternoon pig out, chicken satay with heaps of vegetables and hokkein noodles for dinner.  Managed to stay on kilojoule target somehow.  Feel bloated today.  Damn hormones.

Next Saturday will hopefully be more encouraging for me.

I have a dress I would like to fit into again.  I figure the initial loss of 5 kilos will let me squeeze into it.  The next 10 will make it almost swim on me - which will be just fine by me. 

My self image of my body is all over the place.  Many moons ago when I was 15 I had a gorgeous figure (no bust though) but I had no clue.  I went to Germany, found myself a bust but also discovered my love affair with good food.  Ever since then I have been up and down, again with no clue as to how attractive my figure was until after it was gone and I was seeing it in photographs. 

Age 18 65kg
Age 19 56kg
Age 21 must have been less than 56kg because I was Skinny - possible even too skinny
21-30 usually muddling around 65kg
31 back down to 55kg - thank heavens I have the photos to prove it because I haven't been skinny since.
Granted I had my little girl at 32.  The dress I so desperately want to wear again I bought after she was born.
The next time I stood on a pair of scales was when I was in my first trimester with my little boy.
35 77kg OMGWTF!
41 more than that

Sometimes when I look in the mirror I see curves in all the right places and a pretty face still looking at me.  But sometimes I see beefy chick with fat stomach and face.  I know it's just the hormones making my perception wonky but it is depressing nonetheless.  Plus some 9 yo kid at my daughter's school told my kid that I was fat.  She lumped some other mothers in there with me as also fat.  I know it doesn't matter what this kid thinks of me but it was still pretty awful to hear my child repeating it to me.

Well back to it.  Let's see how well we go this week.